I've had a feeling for a short while that around December 1st there would be a shift beginning in my life. I don't know what it is exactly but I am sure now that it's begun. Too many things from my history have turned up for me to clear up and resolve. I think the Mercury Retrograde definitely helped me to clear up any unresolved energies from my past. One of the things it brought to the surface was an old feeling of self doubt. I've been working with and healing through a lot of my self worth issues over the last year or so and doing all I can to clear up any residual “not good enough”'s. Something that always happens when you start to go in a new direction is that anything contradictory to that direction within your energy system tends to show up. In the past I mistook these for “signs”, but they weren't. They were just residual ideas of who I used to be.
Everything in my life has begun happening at a much slower, easier pace. Weirdly enough the less effort I have been putting into my life the more that seems to be accomplished. I chip away at bits and pieces of everything, making sure to add slowly little bits and pieces of everything I love to my daily routine, including writing, which now has become my favourite part of my morning routine. Sending out the morning blogs and mailing lists doesn't take a lot of time and I thoroughly enjoy it. I also think I'm not so secretly preparing myself for a lot more writing projects next year with all my book ideas slowly solidifying in my head. I lost a lot of the initial writing I did when the last hard drive went Kapoof! But deep down I wasn't that upset or annoyed so I must know somewhere in my consciousness that something richer can be achieved.
My art exhibit has been up nearly a week now which seems to have been less than the blink of an eye and I have no idea yet if anything has sold. If it hasn't I guess i'll start putting more things online because I am quickly running out of room in my little man cave! I have enjoyed the space to start working on my art and developing it more. I think that there has been an emotional distance within the paintings that needs to be fulfilled. I have very much been working on my technique and colour so now creating something with a bit of belly seems to be the right balance. I still have everything based around character design but they are changing. I'll keep you posted.
Musically the new collection of songs is coming together nicely but slowly. I still get ridiculously excited when it comes to creating music and I think the feverish OCD obsessional nature has finally mostly subsided. “Machine” is the first song that's been crafted ( and that is the right word ) and I am over the moon at how it sounds. I am re-doing “Veins” from the last album and “Heart is Thunder” a piano tune are both nearly at completion too. This first little triad sounds so exactly where I want it to go and want it to be that I am instinctively protective over it. Don't worry though, for any of you out there that like my tunes I shall post stuff and have some sort of party when it's all done. I am also definitely re-branding and re-packaging my creative outlets into a single space. I simply don't have the time to manage an art site, music site and writing site and spiritual site plus with art swaps an origami society and a few other creative expressions it's just a bit all over the place so next year it will all be condensed into two separate spaces. One for my creative work and the other for my spiritual work. I shall facebook the hell out of all of you when it's up and ready.